41 posts tagged “me”

Well I visited my dad in hospital today. It's nothing serious, so don't worry. And yeah I haven't been in a hospital for ages, so I totally forgot how it looks. I was kinda amazed, it's like in the dramas I watch so often XD.
Anyway I made my way to the lift and saw this young damn good looking male nurse walking into it and hey I had to get down too, so I walked in too. I was like ZOMG. I thought onToma in Voice as male nurse xD
Well I was even to shy to say >Hello< No good. xD But he looked at me and had this serious and worried glare. I wonder if it's a hard job to do. You see so much ill people. I admire people who have the strenght for this kind of work. xD
Well I LOVE men in uniforms xD And it's more sexy when those men are actually helping other people!
LoL I was totally hit. When I will be in hospital, someday in the future or so, please let me have this kind of good looking male nurses! xD

This sentence is in my head for a few days now XD Translated it means: "Luck is lying on the street, you just have to grab it"

Funny thing that happened today: I visited the mum of my friend and brought her something I forgot. Well then she told me, that the Theatre Club (Theaterwerkstatt, short TW) I'm in is searching for actors for their new play. And well I thought of calling Stefan, the chief of TW. But then, when I drove home, I decided to stop at the TW, maybe someone could be there. As I arrived I was suprised that the door was open, but the whole room was dark, noone was there. It happened a lot that people tried to break in, so I called Stefan and he came and we talked about the play. They are currently searching for a fitting play and now he knows that i want to join and yeah. I'm so happy, that I'll be able to act again! I really missed it since I had to quit last October due to my training, which luckily ends this July.
I hope that I'll be able to play a nice role in the Ensemble (Which is the adult group, I acted in the youth group before) That means really much to me, since the Ensemble is really popular and they had a lot of good plays like "Andorra" or " Der satanarchäolügenialkohöllische Wunschpunsch" or "Der Besuch der alten Dame"

So my acting carrier is starting again~ Yay~
 I would like my friends to come and watch the play. Onegaishimasu! ( I know it's kinda early for this XD)

And yeah i finally decided to travel to Tokyo next year in spring and go to the "Ningen Shikkaku" Premiere, hopefully. Anny will join me and I know it will be the best thing in my life.

And in 3 weeks is Japanday in Düsseldorf! Anny and I will travel there and meet a lot of friends. And I will meet my japanese friend Miki-chan for the first time! I can't wait to see her!~

Aww really, I'm so happy just now, it's like awakening after a loooooooooooooooong coma. Life is really starting for me again. This training was the hardest thing that I have ever done in life so far and I'm happy when i pass the exams and be free again. It really was a hard time, not only for me, but also for my friends and family, cause I was away for a long time and had to put them behind in order to suceed this training. Well it's not done yet. The exams are in 3 weeks and I pray that I'll pass them ;__________________;

OMG, I thought I wasn't reading properly, when I saw the news, but its true! Toma will star as the protaginist in a movie, which is based on a very famous novel called "No longer human"
The novel was even released in america~ I should get this! xD
It will begin airing in japanese cinemas in spring 2010...Dame.. I was hoping for a stage play, so that I can see him, when I fly to japan this year..
Now I'm overthinking it.. I SHOULD fly in spring instead >_____<
But I'm so happy for him! This is a big, BIG step! And he was chosen for the main role at that. It's just wonderful ;__;
ALthough the character and the whole story seems to be very dark and angsty?
I know he will do a great job on playing this character!
Ahhh~ I'm so happy for him ^_______^

Hopefully the movie will be released on english too >___>

Some personal thing:
I got the first grades for my pre-exams and they're good! Yokatta~
I was so afraid~ But then there are still the real exams~
Let's pray that I won't have a blackout or something like this *prays*

@____________@ FINALLY it's weekend >___<
School is killing me, no not because of the lesson but because of the people. We have some bithces there, who think they are the kings or whatever. Acting like teenagers and finding themselves VERY cool, because they have some playboy guy who is 33 years old X____X
 I can't even walk down the hallway without them making some weird sounds or stuff... I'm glad that I have my REAL friends there, not such as them , who pretended to be friends with me and in the other moment acting like I was a pest or something. And they say we behave like kindergarten-kids? Seriously..
I'm so mad.. so i have to let it out here, sorry xD

Finally I am at home and dont have to deal with those bitches, (sorry but this just fits perfectly for them)

And finally we have easter! Sunday is my last day of choclolate-fasting.
I can't belive how hard it is not to eat choclate for a month X___X I literally died ;__;

But finally I have 4 days off... today I was like "Weekend weekend weeekend" the whole day XD
But my AAA DVD isn't there yet....I hope it will arrive saturday ;____;
And the charladys at school dropped my nail polish remover and it got in my cds, the cd were the entire Hana Yori Dango series was on! I am so mad!!!
I'm reallly just glad when I finally graduate from beeing a trainee...

Well did minna see the preview photos of Majo Saiban? Aww I'm jealous of that lúcky girl XD
Toma looks so handsome and mature newadays. (And also an awfully lot like Matsujun xD)

Anyway I was a bit creative:

Springtime

I hope you like it! :D

I can't wait for sunday, when I'm at easter fire with my friends! Finally some relaxing time :D

Edit: Forgot: One good thing at my school place:

...an aunt  in October~~~~~~~ ^_______________________________^

As I went through our  rearanged supermarket with Anna today (we were searching for taco dip) we went in the corridor where the instant noodles were.. and guess what?
I found Yakisoba and Ramen! IN a super market called "Rewe" In Quakenbrück Oo And its even the same Yakisoba I bought in the japanese shops in Düsseldorf!

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Original japanese food in a super market in Quakenbrück? I was like O_______________O *Grab 5 packs of it* xD
Well before I got to my last seminar next monday, I'll buy a bunch of the Yakisoba and bring it with me~~
Lucky that I bought a water heater this week~~~

... were shed today. I don't want to live a sad life from now on.
Tomorrow i will go and buy the cross-necklace, that I wanted to have like for ages...As a few people know, im very religious in my own way. So I will go to the church as well tomorrow and pray.

It is as its said in Arashi's lyrics:

"It's good to cry sometimes.
It's alright to show some weaknesses,
but do not get stuck there!
You can still achieve the dream you had before."

Now I'm on my turn. I needed this crash of my feelings, to become clear. I said much things, that weren't nice. I did a lot of things that I regret. I thought things, which weren't good. I don't want to let my heart be filled with grief and hate from now on. I want to become this happily living girl, that I was once. Surely, life is hard, but I endured much until now and there are a lot of things that will come probably. But I wont let my guard down, I will have the strength. And i will find my way. Life is not a "Wunschkonzert". Our life is what we make out of it.
I want to become a better person in order to live my life happily ^__^ I don't want to regret anything later. This is the point, where it turns. I want to live my life with a smile, even in dark times.

As Arashi said: "Even tomorrow, I will go towards my dreams, worrying while laughing and laughing. Me, who is right here is my everything. That is the only thing that will not change"

That really came out of my heart, and I feel a lot better now. I hope minna don't mind my oustanding feelings here.
Thank you for everything until now and I hope to enjoy a lot of fun times, with you, from now on. m(_ _)m

Again: I love Twilight! " I need some answeres!" "Yes, No, Because sharks dont swim backwards.." LOOOL Edward is just awsome XD

Oh and latest Episode of Meichan is like OMG! I dont want to spoil, but i NEVER expected something like this >__<

And I had a cool dream this night: Actually I was my selfinsert Careline from beyblade Grevoluion and really dressed like her for the first time Oo I was blading against an enemy and he destroyed my blade and i lost my bitchip T___T DROLFIIIIN! XD
Well the chief managed to repair it..
But It was so funny being Careline Oo I even saw Max for a short time XD I ran past him in order to challenge this bad guy xD

Fav quote fro Twilight: "There were three things I was totally sure about. First Edward was a vampire. Second, a part of him, and I didnt know how strong this part was, thristed for my blood. And third I was implicity and irrevocably  in love with him."
btw I love Bellas hair! I have to read the book again! Ines bring my book back!!!

Twilight

Oh i love the scene when bella speaks to Alice in the Cullen manor! I love Edwards expressions there xDDD And how Edward plays piano! I love men who plays the piano! Did you know that Robert actually really played? I read he plays the piano very often XD

I just cleaned my cupboard and found a lot of treasures in it!
For Example:
-My old Pokemon cards, which I kept for 10 years now LOL
-My very first Game Boy, yes this big, grey thing xD
-My Pokemon Games: Red, Blue, Gold
-My Bibi Blocksberg audio cassettes~ I still love this stories
-An very old doll dress, handmade from my late grandmother
-The N64 Pokemon game "Pokemon Snap" which belongs to my best friend xD LOL I'm not quite sure if she still have a Nintendo64.....
Some old drawings I made.. like my first doujinshi, my Ouran high doujinshi... some DracoXHermione pics.. gosh I was so good (well not perfect, but I was satisfied with it) back then and now, I can't draw Mangas anymore T______T
-My gloves from my first Cosplay as Max Mizuhara from Beyblade worn at Leipziger Buchmesse 2006..
I'm very sad, that I won't be able to make this year... I've been there for 3 years in a row now, and I totally love beeing there..All the cosplayers... then Hall 2 with the manga stands... its like a paradise..
Oh and I recognised that I collected much Mangas since I began collecting them.. wel not so much like my friend has (she has around 200 series) But I love my series very much :D

Anyway I added some new treasures to the box, like Mikis letters~
It's really nice when you find stuff like this after some years and remember all thethings from the past ^^
But then we have to look forward to the future! YOSH!

PS.. now I play Hamtaro Ham Hams Unite for GB Colour xD I love this game! Haha So nostalgic!